Entry 39, Sacrifices

  Sacrifices happen all the time around the world. There are indeed many different types of sacrifices, from common religious sacrifices which is commonly some sort of food or meal of some sort for the god and goddesses, and there are other sacrifices where we make for each other as human beings. Small sacrifices would be something like, letting the pedestrians cross first before you zoom your way across traffic, or not eating as much lobster at the buffet so other people could have the chance to have some. These are all very common sacrifices people as a society share and do. I have made tons of sacrifices, I believe that I actually sacrifice the most in a relationship. People don't normally see it, or people can never picture it, but throughout all my relationships, atleast the more serious ones, I was the one who would have to be the slave, getting stuff for them when they don't want to, brushing off the pepper because they don't like their food spicy. But, I still was willing to do it and I still am willing to, because at the end of the day, nothing beats the feeling of having someone love you, someone care about you. I think the reason behind sacrificing for others in a relationship is just simply because that I want to baby them and make them feel loved. I don't regret doing it and I  will continue doing it no matter how old I am. That is just one sacrifice I will continue doing for the loved ones.

Entry 38, Winter Break

  I did not do anything especially amazing this Winter Break. I just stayed home for the whole time and hung out with friends. I went out with a lot of people during the break to hang out, sleep until the afternoon, and just live a lazy life. I guess people are right when they tell you to enjoy the moments where you can just relax, as you get older, those chances lessens as you are piled of loads of work. I know I don't even have so much work yet, but I just think that I have to take advantage while I still can. Two weeks, I spent it everyday with Ingrid, nearly every single day I guess, people might think that's boring, but I never find any of those dates boring. I love spending time with her. For two weeks, I have been doing a lot of thinking about future careers, I have came up with nothing eventually. I guess its never too early to start thinking about what you are going to do for the rest of your life right? I admire those people who can just know what they are destined to do. I hope that there are jobs out there that are suitable for me and I hope I can find a correct direction of career approach. I also went back to my grandparent's house in Gao Shong and came back on New Years. I had the best New Years this year with everyone I love. My friends and all my family. Much love for them, Happy 2012. May this year be more amazing than last year.

Entry 37, Why be a Prodigy?

  Coming from an Asian family, I have yet experienced the craziness of the parents who wants their kids to excel in every possible subject and talent. I was never pushed to learn the piano, I was never pushed to really work hard or anything, my parent's attitude were always just about giving your best shot. In the story of Two Kinds, Jing Mei was pushed into doing alot of things and countless attempts of discovering her talents, sadly, they did not discover any. Her motivation was just to please her mom, just to be the little obiedient girl the Asian culture always promoted. She wanted to also try to see if she is a genius at a certain subject as well. The feeling of not being able to achieve such goal has led to the rebellious act of Jing Mei. She thinks that she is nothing like what her mother wanted her to be, and therefore she did not want to keep trying to be something she would never be and never achieve. The change bitters the relationship with her mother as she had became rebellious and opposing the orders of her mother. This story acts as the differences of American culture and Asian culture fighting against each other. I often change my mind about many things. It all depends on the experiences of the previous events. I believe that many factors can pressure people into changing their mind, mostly peer pressure from friends and family, basically outside forces.